2013 was great for a bunch of friends of mine. Some of them graduate from college. Some of them then go get their dream job, some other go abroad to continue study, some of them stays in campus for fasttrack program, and some of them, well, just enjoying their life no longer being a college student. It was a really great year for them.
For me? Well, 2013 was great. But not that great. In first half of 2013, I live in a dream. The only thing wrong is, that I can’t enjoy it. Why? Obviously, because it wasn’t my dream. Someone else might have dreamed to live that life of mine. But not me. For me, it’s more like a nightmare. You want it to end, but to end it, you have to wait until your body finally wake up. Sometimes, if you’re lucky enough, your brain starts to take control and your nightmare become a good enough dream. But only if you’re lucky. Most of the time, I just find myself trapped and can only wait until that nightmare ends.
And finally, in exactly the middle of the year, I find something that can helps me escape that nightmare. So I did. And I’m really glad I did. I finally be free and that nightmare stays a nightmare. Something that you will actually forget when you have already waken up.
The second half of 2013 was incredibly amazing it passes in a blink of an eye. I don’t live in a dream anymore. I can control everything I do as how I want it. I have fun with my friends, get some quality time with my bestfriends, have more quality time with new group of friends. I’m alive and I never feel better before. I can finally live my life. I don’t have to worry about anything else.
The end of 2013 is pretty much the same as the end of 2012. I am running to catch a deadline in January. The difference is, last year’s run is a sprint, while this year’s is a marathon. I find ways to push myself beyond a limit I never even knew was there. The best thing is, I feel more alive doing that, and I know now that I can actually push any limitation I once had. That is one incredible feeling.
To sum it up, 2013 is pretty much a great year. I think it’s better than 2012.
But I can’t wait for it to be in 2014. If 2013 is my friends’ year, 2014 will be my year. I won’t just wait, I will run for it even if I’m going to be running out of breath.
Written while listening for fireworks’ sounds outside. It’s energizing! Happy New Year, everybody! 😀